What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

Last Updated: 03.07.2025 03:23

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

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My life is so biszare .

What did i know ?

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

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I write beautiful poetry .

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

He was dying to do it , i knew.

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My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

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This is how, and why children get BPD.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

What is the best/cute/funny/playful chat/conversation between brother and sister?

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

I know ,a lot about trauma.

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Was to survive, this bastard.

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

She wouldn,t have been !

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My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

Comes on , in middle age.

One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

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I never cut or harmed myself..

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

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I was writing from the time i was a small child.

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

Is there porn on TikTok?

And i lived it daily.

He knew the spot.

I waited trembling.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

Im still living with it.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

This is soul school!.

My mum and dad in the seventies!

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

I said to her

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

She loved him until the end.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

(And it was in our own minds.)

I was scared of men, in general

I was seconnd youngest,

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

I think the readers, may guess!

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I had hoped to write a book about this .

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

I could never make a relationship work though!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

And who doesn’t know suffering?

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

Who then, do I blame.?

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

Ive learnt so much.

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

Especially a lifetime of it.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I will be 64.

All the time i was locked up.

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

We were not on the streets..

I was very sick at this time too.

Would this be the day?

So, i spoilt her more .

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

But ive been too sick for many years..

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

As i do to all so called friends.?

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

Why did i forgive my father ?

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

So whats the point in blame.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

My family never makes their pension either.

But it wasn’t much.

She found it foreign!.

But, we were locked up after school.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

It was going to be , some day.

My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

We all went to grammer schools

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

He resisted the act ,that day.

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

I did it because my mum asked me too!

Put me off passion for life!!

I don,t even have a pension.

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

One cannot hold on to bitterness.

I have no regrets .

Where the ultimate outsiders.

She was in good health!

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

When she asked me how she looked .

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

I couldn’t, believe it.

He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

She married twice! .

One cannot live in the past .

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

I was 9 years of age.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

Im dying but, im not bitter.

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The only rule us 5 kids had .

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.